Monday, December 31, 2012

The lastpost in 2012

After almost 7 hours of flight, and 2 hours of drive, HOME sweet home!


Since morning, except the time I went to school to 보건소, I had been checking the email. Not knowing when the scholarship would announce the result, me and my friends could do nothing except checking the inbox. I was..nervous. Even minutes before boarding on plane, I still was checking email via phone.

After 7 hours, 'To Malaysians, welcome home! And to foreigners, welcome to this wonderful country!', all I was thinking was, to get wifi to check if I had any email from the scholarship.

No figure beside Inbox. No new emails.
No scholarship?

I did not really know how I felt that time but to be honest, I was worried, and very much disappointed. 
As I kept asking whys and hows, I lost peace, and focus. I could complain to no one here, so I did it to Him.

Not until the next day, pastor reminded us that 'He knows our future! and He has provided you what you needed best, and still will provide you in the future!'

Thinking back, how He has brought me to where I am now, these 5 years, and JPA scholarship was one of the best gifts in my life, I was again thankful for His blessings. I did not really ask for it yet He just gave me freely. Now, even though I did not get this scholarship, I should be having the faith that He is going to provide, in any ways, just like how He has provided me these 5 years. He has opened the door for me to pursue my studies, I want to have the faith, believing that He IS going to bring and lead me till the end of this new journey of life.

'I am your refuge and strength, an ever-present Help in trouble. Therefore, you don’t need to be afraid of anything......If you focus on such dangers and forget that I am your Refuge in all circumstances, you will become increasingly fearful.'

God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.
—Psalm 46:1–3

'As this year draws to a close, receive My Peace. This is still your deepest need, and I, your Prince of Peace, long to pour Myself into your neediness. My abundance and your emptiness are a perfect match. I designed you to have no sufficiency of your own. I created you as a jar of clay, set apart for sacred use. I want you to be filled with My very Being, permeated through and through with Peace.

Thank Me for My peaceful Presence, regardless of your feelings.Whisper My Name in loving tenderness. My Peace, which lives continually in your spirit, will gradually work its way through your entire being.'

As 2012 is coming to an end, I want to send this year off with a heart of thanksgiving, casting down the worries and fears to Him, and to welcome the new year with hope and joy! 2013 is going to be another year filled with His presence and blessings! 

Blessed 2013 ahead!!

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

After such a long break....

Alright!
After resting for almost a year,
I should start writing something here.
As usual me, I am not a professional blogger who blogs everyday, I will just write whenever I feel like to :)


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Fifth day of December, a simple day,
yet a day filled with excitement!

Looking at my professor flipping each page of my thesis,
I silently prayed, 'Please, please, just continue flipping till the last page, please just pass it!'
He stopped at the conclusion part, started reading.
'Ah....pleaseeee......'
Then he turned to the first page again, correcting some words,
and looked up at me,
'It looks okie,' and *smiled*
I am very sure, that moment, my smile was bigger than his, like this :
YEAH I passed my thesis!! One more week , one more final paper, and I am done with my undergraduate life!
Happily walking down, it was snowing lightly.
It was reported to snow heavily today. I was anticipating.

After getting down from the shuttle, it started to snow heavier.
Like a kid, I stretched out my hand, letting the snowflakes drop on my palm.
I was excited!
Can't really see the excitement from my face. But I WAS excited!
After being in Korea for 4 years, snow never failed to excite me.
If you noticed snowflakes carefully, they are ALL in different shapes .
They are so tiny, delicate and fragile, yet God made them ALL unique.
That reminded me of how God created each and everyone so uniquely different too!

Snow got heavier and heavier~
Excitement was surging. Decided to go out to take pictures with my 3gs iPhone, hmm they did not turn out..real bad. While the ahjummas and ahjossis were mumbling as they had to shovel the snow, I was excitedly drawing on snow and taking pictures :)








Met up with Egon, like finally, on a snowy day!
We missed the first and the second snow.
It's okieee, I would just treat this as the first snow~ ;)



Poor him, he was so sleepy after sleeping for just an hour yesterday night
and still had to play with me ㅋㅋ
Thank youuuuu! :D

and Thank God for such a wonderful day!
It was cold outside, yet warm inside :)
Alright, a great day has to end with Quantum Mechanics homework! :S

Till then!




Wednesday, January 4, 2012

2011 was a bumpy yet a fruitful year.
     2012 is gonna be a greater one, I pray.


New year, New goals, New resolutions!


Happy New Year! :D

Wednesday, November 16, 2011



16th Nov. Cold weather.
Next month today, dad mum arrive at Seoul, last final paper, last day of my 6th semester...
Excited. yet heavy-hearted.
Ah, don't like the irony.


Listening to a song recommended by a friend.




Liking it, especially the last phrase : 'Let me pick the path that pleases You.'
I don't know where it is leading to. I am afraid of losing it.
Yet, if it is not Your will, I will need to let go.


To let go, and let God.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Counting blessings!

One of my resolutions for this year is to be a blessing to others.


Truly, this year, God has been showing me on how to bless people. And though I know, 'It is more blessed to give than to receive ( Acts 20:35)', I am still amazed on how God blesses me moreeee than I could imagine when I decide to give more. God does not only bless me financially, He blesses me in relationships, in studies, in spiritual growth, in EVERYTHING I do. This reminds me of Deuteronomy 15:10.


Recently, God has been really blessing me with really wonderful people around me. And there are some that I want to especially thank God for.


1. I am blessed to have you, onni. Thank you for your listening ears, for every prayer that you keep me in, for the trust that you have placed in me, every blessing, every concern and care. He knows that I have been wanting an elder sister, and He gave you to me.


2. I am blessed to have you, butty bro. Every encouragement, every advice, every laughter, every single time you willingly spend to listen, every blessing, every support, I appreciate and treasure every of them. I thank God that He created both of us alike in many ways, that we can understand and encourage each other. He knows that I have been wanting an elder bro, too, and He gave you to me.


3. I am blessed to have you, 매점이모(님). Every fruit and food that you give me every time I visit maejom warms my heart. I did not know a box of Früchtetee and some Rittersport chocolates could do this wonder. To me, it is a wonder. You let me understand and experience, the joy of giving.


4. I am blessed to have you, best friend. We have known each other for 4 years, you know me better than others, you have seen my ugly side, yet, you accept me for who I am. This semester, both of us are busy, yet, a simple message from you let me know that you are still there for me, anytime, when I need you. He knows that I need a best friend, and He gave you to me.


5. I am blessed to have you, pui. I am grateful for the trip, that four of us not only were able to travel together, but to know each other more. You might not know, some random messages you send, managed to put a smile on my face :) They are so random yet so 'you'. Just to let you know, you are always in my prayers. You might not believe in Him, but He loves you, always.


6. I am blessed to have you, my family. This blessing is not given to me only in this year, since I was born, God has given me this gift. I thank Him for every single webcam video calling, every prayer over Skype, every joke, every good news, every support and, love. I know, even if people fail me, I always have your back. 


And I pray that God will continue to make me a channel of blessing to all of you too, and to many more.


Love,
Chelle. 

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

A Reminder

 And this is the confidence that we have before him: 
that whenever we ask anything according to his will, he hears us.

 And if we know that he hears us in regard to whatever we ask, 
then we know that we have the requests that we have asked from him.

1 John 5: 14-15

Amen :)

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Broken pieces

Thank You for this day.
A day started with spiritual battle early in the morning.


'I am broken,'
I see it coming when I said the prayer that day.
A prayer to You,
deciding to follow every of Your will,
no matter what happens.


A lot of times,
I feel small and weak,
I feel ugly inside, and not worthy to be loved.
But You, have never left me nor forsaken me,
no matter how many times I have fallen short of Your Glory.


You hear me when I call,
You see each tear that falls,
You pick up every broken pieces.
It is Your Grace that brought me thus far.


This spiritual battle,
I want to stand boldly and win victoriously,
not by my will,
but by Your power.


Strengthen me, Father.
Pick me up when I fall,
and help me to continue the walk by faith.


Thank You.
Thank You for Your unconditional Love,
amazing Grace,
and abundant Mercy.