Monday, December 31, 2012

The lastpost in 2012

After almost 7 hours of flight, and 2 hours of drive, HOME sweet home!

Since morning, except the time I went to school to 보건소, I had been checking the email. Not knowing when the scholarship would announce the result, me and my friends could do nothing except checking the inbox. I was..nervous. Even minutes before boarding on plane, I still was checking email via phone.

After 7 hours, 'To Malaysians, welcome home! And to foreigners, welcome to this wonderful country!', all I was thinking was, to get wifi to check if I had any email from the scholarship.

No figure beside Inbox. No new emails.
No scholarship?

I did not really know how I felt that time but to be honest, I was worried, and very much disappointed. 
As I kept asking whys and hows, I lost peace, and focus. I could complain to no one here, so I did it to Him.

Not until the next day, pastor reminded us that 'He knows our future! and He has provided you what you needed best, and still will provide you in the future!'

Thinking back, how He has brought me to where I am now, these 5 years, and JPA scholarship was one of the best gifts in my life, I was again thankful for His blessings. I did not really ask for it yet He just gave me freely. Now, even though I did not get this scholarship, I should be having the faith that He is going to provide, in any ways, just like how He has provided me these 5 years. He has opened the door for me to pursue my studies, I want to have the faith, believing that He IS going to bring and lead me till the end of this new journey of life.

'I am your refuge and strength, an ever-present Help in trouble. Therefore, you don’t need to be afraid of anything......If you focus on such dangers and forget that I am your Refuge in all circumstances, you will become increasingly fearful.'

God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.
—Psalm 46:1–3

'As this year draws to a close, receive My Peace. This is still your deepest need, and I, your Prince of Peace, long to pour Myself into your neediness. My abundance and your emptiness are a perfect match. I designed you to have no sufficiency of your own. I created you as a jar of clay, set apart for sacred use. I want you to be filled with My very Being, permeated through and through with Peace.

Thank Me for My peaceful Presence, regardless of your feelings.Whisper My Name in loving tenderness. My Peace, which lives continually in your spirit, will gradually work its way through your entire being.'

As 2012 is coming to an end, I want to send this year off with a heart of thanksgiving, casting down the worries and fears to Him, and to welcome the new year with hope and joy! 2013 is going to be another year filled with His presence and blessings! 

Blessed 2013 ahead!!

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

After such a long break....

After resting for almost a year,
I should start writing something here.
As usual me, I am not a professional blogger who blogs everyday, I will just write whenever I feel like to :)


Fifth day of December, a simple day,
yet a day filled with excitement!

Looking at my professor flipping each page of my thesis,
I silently prayed, 'Please, please, just continue flipping till the last page, please just pass it!'
He stopped at the conclusion part, started reading.
Then he turned to the first page again, correcting some words,
and looked up at me,
'It looks okie,' and *smiled*
I am very sure, that moment, my smile was bigger than his, like this :
YEAH I passed my thesis!! One more week , one more final paper, and I am done with my undergraduate life!
Happily walking down, it was snowing lightly.
It was reported to snow heavily today. I was anticipating.

After getting down from the shuttle, it started to snow heavier.
Like a kid, I stretched out my hand, letting the snowflakes drop on my palm.
I was excited!
Can't really see the excitement from my face. But I WAS excited!
After being in Korea for 4 years, snow never failed to excite me.
If you noticed snowflakes carefully, they are ALL in different shapes .
They are so tiny, delicate and fragile, yet God made them ALL unique.
That reminded me of how God created each and everyone so uniquely different too!

Snow got heavier and heavier~
Excitement was surging. Decided to go out to take pictures with my 3gs iPhone, hmm they did not turn out..real bad. While the ahjummas and ahjossis were mumbling as they had to shovel the snow, I was excitedly drawing on snow and taking pictures :)

Met up with Egon, like finally, on a snowy day!
We missed the first and the second snow.
It's okieee, I would just treat this as the first snow~ ;)

Poor him, he was so sleepy after sleeping for just an hour yesterday night
and still had to play with me ㅋㅋ
Thank youuuuu! :D

and Thank God for such a wonderful day!
It was cold outside, yet warm inside :)
Alright, a great day has to end with Quantum Mechanics homework! :S

Till then!